Everything In Its Time

Remembering Ecclesiastes 3, I was just listening to this song by Corrinne May. I didn't exactly finish listening to the entire song though; was touched and moved by the chorus of the song:

"The river runs and the river hides,
Out to the ocean and under the sky.
I promise you the answer will come,
Just hold on to patience and wait for the sign.
Everything in its time.."

I've been struggling alot lately in many many areas of my work. Just looking back, it's been going on for a while. It just gets worse as more areas of my life start to crumble. Work, ministries, family, friends, commitment. Also, I sense a fight with a close friend brewing in the horizon.

Sometimes I can't help but think is there no end to the situations that come my way? Is there no end to the problems that I have to face? Is there anyone who truly understands what I go through?

Amidst all these, Corrinne has (through her song) told me the One true promise that will stand. Long before time began and after time ends, He was and will always be there. My God has always been beside me, though many many times I refuse to acknowledge His presence.

Who am I that I deserve this depth of grace? What is this love showered over me unending, overflowing and forgiving?

Still I fall into the dark abyss of sin once too often despite knowing and encountering Him.

Isaiah tells us to wait upon the Lord, to depend on His strength. What does it mean to wait on Him? How do I wait on Him? The human soul in an impatient entity, always rushing, never silent, never contented. How then can I calm my anxious heart and tune myself to His will? The One who wants to give me only His best.

Jesus, You alone can break these chains.. You alone know my rising and my falling.. You alone see my worth.. You alone can rescue..

My Chainbreaker, Saviour King, Lifegiver. I dare not call You best friend for no friend neglects another. I pray that Your grace abounds to me..